My heart will go on...

After a crazy week of having lightheadedness... (yes that's a long word and I've had to type it a lot lately) I have found out some amazing things. First of all, my heart is all kinds of strong. Strong on the inside and strong for my kids. I ran to the ER on Sunday because I couldn't grasp the concept of leaving my kids on this earth if I could help it. Don't get me wrong. I would love to go to heaven right NOW and bring everyone with me... but I couldn't bare to leave my kiddos at this time in their life. Sometimes when you have had a life threatened moment in the past you realize it's worth it to make sure you are OK in the future. So I had that moment yesterday. I had been experiencing lightheadedness on and off and then it just kept coming back everyday until I was experiencing it every 5-10 minutes in waves. I thought something was definitely wrong with me. My body was trying to tell me something and I just kept pushing it off. I probably googled everything in the book. Was it my thyroid, hormones, anemia, pregnancy, stroke, and even heart attack. On Saturday night I woke up in a panic thinking my heart could stop at any moment and I could have done something about  it. So with the emotional crazy momma on hand.. Sunday was the last straw for me. I told Craig I wanted to head to the ER because there was something wrong and I felt strongly about it. We found the nurse hotline for our insurance and when I called telling her my symptoms she told me to head into the ER. I went. I got every test they could think of. My EKG, thyroid, anemia, blood sugar, blood pressure, pregnancy test were all showing signs I was in PERFECT health. I was super happy about all of this, but also knew something still wasn't right. I wanted to check myself into a mental hospital, but I knew there was a few more things I could try.
I recently had the copper IUD put in and thought this could be my body reacting to this foreign object. And I was set on taking it out... it was my last resort. I decided to call my regular doctor today and go in to see what could be next for me... a CAT scan is what I was thinking. So Craig came home early and I went to the doctor at 4 p.m. She looked at all my blood work done (by the hospital) and was happy to rule out all of those typical problems with lightheadedness. She looked in my ear and said that I may have some fluid in my inner ear and could be causing the brain to be unbalanced. Wait... what??????????? After all this craziness it's my ear? God made us so amazingly I cannot even fathom it. She said the inner ear tells the brain how to balance and all this craziness. I had never even thought of something  being off in there. She said since it's been so hot and the pressure all over the place here in Texas I may be allergic in some way building up pressure in my ear. There was absolutely no sign of sickness to even think about my ear... So right now I'm praying this medication she prescribed me will start to help in the next few days. Obviously, if it doesn't a CatScan is next and I DONT even want to think about that.

I know Craig will call me a little psycho for this experience, but once you realize health comes before money it's a different ball game. I couldn't imagine leaving my kiddos right now. What they would remember and how I left them. I really had some moments this week that I will take away forever. How precious each moment with them is and how I want them to remember me for being a loving, caring and Christ following mommy.

Thanks for letting me rant... and now to the cute little babes in my life..

OMG... Look at this Girl!!!!

Love you all and Pray for me!!!

Honky Tonk Birthday Bash

We survived the night out in Fort Worth with our friends. It was a great night full of laughter, dancing, music, and amazing friends. Of course it went by super fast. We all met up at the comedy show called, Four Day Weekend. They are an improv comedy show that goes off of what people write down before the show. So they were so funny and I loved every second. It was something Craig and I always love...laughing. So after the show we took an Uber to Billy Bob's. This place was massive... I had no idea how big it was inside. They had live music, bull riding, restaurants, and dancing. It wasn't as much line dancing as I thought...more of couple two stepping. I got to dance with a few of my girlfriends, and a few of the guys we were with. Everyone was so sweet to me and we all enjoyed our night out kid free a little too much. Stayed out till 2 a.m. and now Craig and I are a little over exhausted. Totally worth it though!!

Our babysitter said Micah woke up at 5 a.m. and Noelle at 6 a.m. so I felt really bad about that. I wish she would have told Micah to go back to sleep. He had to take a nap today because he couldn't make it all day and now he's going to stay up too late for me.

Here's Noelle eating peanut butter in her cowgirl hat. She wanted to come with us..

 My friend Camille had us over for my birthday and she made me banana pudding. She is too sweet!!

We also asked our neighbor to watch our kids for 2 hours while we went to a meeting for our new campus church we are starting in the fall. I didn't think both Craig and I would be able to go, but I texted her last minute and she said of course she could watch them. She's 72 and rocking it!! She was so sweet and I hope to be able to use her again. It was so nice to get out for just 2 hours without paying and worrying about someone needing to get home. She is the neighbor that took Noelle and I to the Arboretum a while ago.


Love you all!

Magnolia Market

I can't believe I'm turning 32 on Friday! Life goes by so fast. One second your going to college, then marriage, then kids, and all the sudden your in your 30s. The 30 year old phase really makes you think about goals and striving to do something more than just yourself. Whether it's having kids or giving back to the community. I feel like in your 20s it's easy to only see yourself and what YOU want for your life. Now I'm setting goals for my family and my kids. Yes I want to accomplish this for me, but I am thinking of others more often than not these days.

I was recently asked to be a leader for my moms group at church. The official title in Discussion Group Leader (DGL) for MOMS Connection. This has been one of my dreams to serve other moms in the area who are in need of a friend, or a helping hand, or just ears to listen. I have always felt a tug at my heart for moms because it's so hard and we need one another to survive. Especially those who don't have family around. As I was talking to my other friend about it... we connect with other moms to make family friends, it sometimes means more to us than others who have family close by. Our connections and commitment to one another seems to be a lot stronger.

Speaking of friends with no family around... Camille and I got to have some amazing bonding time together this weekend. We traveled to Waco together to see the Magnolia Market at the Silos. Chip and Joanna Gaines Market from "Fixer Upper." On our way we had an hour and a half of time there and back to get to know one another. We realized even knowing each other for a year now, we never had a full conversation of our lives and past experiences because...well...KIDS. We can talk in sentences sometimes, but mostly it's just a little bit here and there. We got to relive our dating experience with our now husbands, what we did before we had kids and how much life has changed. I really needed this break and it was so much fun. We connected on a deep level and never had a dull moment in the car.
I picked out a couple items from her (Joanna) shop to put in my house and I love saying, "that's from Magnolia." I hope to go back soon. I want to post some pics from our day away. 8 a.m.- 5 p.m.

It was such an amazing day to get away and we couldn't run home when it was over. We got to sit in the car and chat. It's nice when you can plan these types of mini vacations. Also, I get to go to Fort Worth this weekend for my birthday and stay at a hotel!! I am excited to see comedy improv group and then dance the night away at Billy Bobs. I usually keep it low key for my birthday, but this year it different. I planned it out and was ready to invite my friends (who all get along). I am so grateful to have these friends who will take time to book a hotel and make this a birthday to remember. 32 is looking good so far!!

We took the kids to Ten 50 BBQ and they loved it. It was still really hot outside, but we stuck around and played for a bit outside in the shade. The kids were so happy. I love days like this!!

Happy Birthday to my beautiful sister in law too. I am so proud of her and all that she has accomplished for herself and her kids. I love that our birthdays are only a day apart!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMMI!!!

Here's Micah and Samuel on their last day of summer school.

 Micah teaching Noelle at the library.

 

Our pic at Chickfila dressing like cows to get free food. : )