I love you too mom

I don't think anything can prepare you for those three words coming from your little one. It may be the best sound in the world. He's been saying it alot to me lately. Out of nowhere, "I love you Mom." And tonight it just hit me so much harder. He's becoming a little man. Talking and saying everything. I hope he never stops saying he loves me.
Tonight I said goodnight to him and said I love you Micah. The way he said, "I love you too, Mom" made me think I was doing something right. Made every tough moment mean the world to me. These days many people don't want kids and I couldn't imagine never hearing those words. It makes you realize this life is worth the struggles and heartache. It's worth it to love those around you and give your kids as many kisses as possible.

I feel like every time I hear those words they mean more to me because they mean more to Micah. When he tells me he loves me out of nowhere it's probably the best feeling ever. Like what did I do to deserve this? I'm just so stinking grateful for this little guy. Everyday he makes me smile more.

He's only 26 months but I feel like he's turning 3 soon. He's picking up sentences and learning shapes, colors and numbers so quickly.  His little brain is soaking it all in and he may be smarter than me soon. Haha I can't believe how much they learn in the first few years if life.

I'm just so happy I can walk this journey with him everyday. I never miss a moment and I'm so incredibly lucky for that.

Happy Thursday ya'll.

18 weeks

Hey there!

I'm 18 weeks today! Time is going by fast. I'm getting a free prenatal massage tonight and I am so excited. I have been having pains in my left leg. It's a strange feeling...but mostly happens when I'm still for a long period. I'm trying to walk in the mornings by myself now that my neighbor is about to have a baby any day now. I want to keep going because I know it's good for me.

MOPS is starting next week too. I just got 5 invitations from them. Some for mops and other for events and even mom's night out events. I can't tell you how thrilled I am to be in a mom's group again. I love getting out and play dates and go go go. I need to make as many friends before I'm stuck inside this winter.

Also I was looking into maybe doing prenatal yoga again. I really enjoyed it when I was pregos with M and met one of my good friends from Texas there.

I got to go out with Hannah and her girls this morning. Breakfast and then catch air. We had a great time and with the boys away at my mom's it was a bit easier with three kids instead of 5. 

Tomorrow night I will be heading to church for worship practice. This is am exiting week for me. I get to get out twice at night and sing on Sunday morning!!

Last night we went to food trucks and Micah loves it. He loves making friends and running around in the grass. It was hot but we stayed in the shade and kept as cool as possible. In the middle of the grass there was a yoga class going on and Micah and his friend Victor wanted to be a part of it. They were the cutest.  I mean I seriously want to take him to a yoga class now. I think he would enjoy it!!

Hope you all are having a great week.

Dancing

One last thing. I got to catch the boys dancing a bit on the last day of vacation.  It's always fun when Papa brings out the guitar.

Gatlinburg: Take 2

I'm back and feeling good! Doing lots of laundry and errands today to catch up on some stuff. Mondays are for that type of stuff. We had so much fun in Gatlinburg with my family. It was nice to do some different stuff than last time. Dollywood, Comedy Barn, Murder Mystery show, Ober rides and my birthday dinner at Harry Hapoon's Crab house! I definitely was a little nervous about having 5 kids going out to dinner, but to my surprise it was an amazing time and I got my favorite: SUSHI!! (It was cooked of course :) )

I will be 18 weeks on Wednesday and I'm feeling it for sure! I mean, it's that rough stage where people stare at you like...hmmmm she could be fat or pregnant. It's a 50/50 chance. haha This little girl has popped way faster than Micah. I expected that, but for some reason this time I feel a bit fatter. Last time it was all baby. This time I got some baby fat left on me and then more baby pushing it out. I wanted to shop for maternity clothes today, but my local mall didn't have a store. I was pretty sad about it. I need to start wearing tight clothes because everything I have is loose fitting and looks funny. I will post a baby bump photo soon.

Naps are a little easier now that we are home. That was the only struggle we had at the resort. Our TV didn't work in our room and it was so bright I don't think Micah could fall asleep. So a few days I had to bear hug him in the bed until he fell asleep. It was a struggle and he can be pretty strong. I won every time though don't worry. He fought me long and hard until he pooped out.

Lots of pics taken last week and I will share them all with you!!

These pictures are not in order, but you get the picture. haha
Dollywood was a ton of fun. Lots of little kid rides surprisingly and Micah was about half an inch too short for the other rides. He will be able to ride everything probably next month since he is growing so fast.
The day before my birthday we got a girls day out and had lunch and pedicures. Wow. I loved that. It was so nice and relaxing. Lunch without littles was amazing and the Pottery Cafe was perfect. So glad my mom found that place.

Our waitress took one photo of us all and I couldn't believe it actually turned out good. Also, I don't know why she only took ONE!! She took a ton of photos before we were ready and snapped one of us while we were smiling. I got lucky that everyone looks good and no one is making a crazy/sad face. Such a fun night.

Now I'm back in Atlanta and it's hot and humid and I'm not liking it at all. I feel like I want to sit in my house and wait till October. I'm so glad I'm only 18 weeks prego and I get to have the cool air while I'm big and fat. haha

Love you all!!

Support

Since I posted my story on my Facebook page I've had a ton of support and a few people reach out. I knew it would touch some people more than others. Many friends I have are in the same boat. In their 30's wanting babies, or having babies, or trying to have babies. We are definitely in that stage of life. Last week I had a long lost friend from elementary school contact me and tell me how much my story helped her as she was just in the process of finding out her HCG levels were dropping. She also has a son around the same age as Micah was when I had mine. Yesterday I got a new message from her saying she was in the hospital recovering from an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured. She lost her right tube and was hurting...emotionally. Wow. It hit me so hard. I wish I would have asked her more about her situation and what was happening. I wish I could have helped her before it happened. It's just crazy how much we connect now. Someone so far and so long ago can connect on such a personal and different level because of these types of situations. I realized how much it meant to me to have someone reach out and tell me the same thing happened to them. But it wasn't something that happened recently. I really hope I can be here for her and even give her daily hope. This little girl in my tummy is a miracle and I am so grateful, but also know it can happen for others too.
Please keep her in your prayers. As she navigates the next few months and the challenges that come with it.


Wanted to also talk about the weekend. Leslie's baby shower was too cute. The theme was called "Sprinkled with Love" and everything was very thought out and beautiful. I didn't take many photos, but she had a headband making station, block making station and you could write stuff on diapers for late night changes. They had yummy food and lots of desserts with sprinkles! I had a great time celebrating little Eliza Hope.

Today Micah is getting a haircut!! I'm so excited that Craig is finally agreeing. It has to be way too long before he agrees, but it's time! I can even put his hair in a ponytail like his uncle Marky.

Micah is such a little two year old now. He is also a performer. He likes to sing and dance for his stuffed animals. It's so sweet. I don't really know what he's saying, but when I play back the video it's like he knows exactly what he's saying...so that's all that matters. 

Craig was able to get Micah's sister's room painted this weekend. It's a very light grey and will look so perfect with the white crib and coral bedding. 

Micah loves to go in his sister's room. 

We are so excited to go on vacation this WEEKEND!! Woohoo.  We get to experience Gatlinburg all over again with new adventures. Can't wait to be with all my family for a week. 

On Monday night Micah and I went over Maggie's house to hang out for a little bit. Micah loves playing with little Isabella and they are so cute together. It's still hard for Maggie to do anything. She went to the grocery store and everything reminded her of her husband. I would think being at home all the time would be worse. She hasn't really left her house since it happened so being at home is comfort for her. Please keep her in your prayers. I think since the shock is going away the reality is setting in and is even harder to contemplate. 

We are celebrating her birthday tonight and hoping that we can make her laugh and let her know we are here for her. 

Love you all