After a crazy week of having lightheadedness... (yes that's a long word and I've had to type it a lot lately) I have found out some amazing things. First of all, my heart is all kinds of strong. Strong on the inside and strong for my kids. I ran to the ER on Sunday because I couldn't grasp the concept of leaving my kids on this earth if I could help it. Don't get me wrong. I would love to go to heaven right NOW and bring everyone with me... but I couldn't bare to leave my kiddos at this time in their life. Sometimes when you have had a life threatened moment in the past you realize it's worth it to make sure you are OK in the future. So I had that moment yesterday. I had been experiencing lightheadedness on and off and then it just kept coming back everyday until I was experiencing it every 5-10 minutes in waves. I thought something was definitely wrong with me. My body was trying to tell me something and I just kept pushing it off. I probably googled everything in the book. Was it my thyroid, hormones, anemia, pregnancy, stroke, and even heart attack. On Saturday night I woke up in a panic thinking my heart could stop at any moment and I could have done something about it. So with the emotional crazy momma on hand.. Sunday was the last straw for me. I told Craig I wanted to head to the ER because there was something wrong and I felt strongly about it. We found the nurse hotline for our insurance and when I called telling her my symptoms she told me to head into the ER. I went. I got every test they could think of. My EKG, thyroid, anemia, blood sugar, blood pressure, pregnancy test were all showing signs I was in PERFECT health. I was super happy about all of this, but also knew something still wasn't right. I wanted to check myself into a mental hospital, but I knew there was a few more things I could try.
I recently had the copper IUD put in and thought this could be my body reacting to this foreign object. And I was set on taking it out... it was my last resort. I decided to call my regular doctor today and go in to see what could be next for me... a CAT scan is what I was thinking. So Craig came home early and I went to the doctor at 4 p.m. She looked at all my blood work done (by the hospital) and was happy to rule out all of those typical problems with lightheadedness. She looked in my ear and said that I may have some fluid in my inner ear and could be causing the brain to be unbalanced. Wait... what??????????? After all this craziness it's my ear? God made us so amazingly I cannot even fathom it. She said the inner ear tells the brain how to balance and all this craziness. I had never even thought of something being off in there. She said since it's been so hot and the pressure all over the place here in Texas I may be allergic in some way building up pressure in my ear. There was absolutely no sign of sickness to even think about my ear... So right now I'm praying this medication she prescribed me will start to help in the next few days. Obviously, if it doesn't a CatScan is next and I DONT even want to think about that.
I know Craig will call me a little psycho for this experience, but once you realize health comes before money it's a different ball game. I couldn't imagine leaving my kiddos right now. What they would remember and how I left them. I really had some moments this week that I will take away forever. How precious each moment with them is and how I want them to remember me for being a loving, caring and Christ following mommy.
Thanks for letting me rant... and now to the cute little babes in my life..
OMG... Look at this Girl!!!!
Love you all and Pray for me!!!
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